Wednesday 17 October 2018

A Call to ALMIGHTY

My spirit crys out to the universe.

Why it cries out, why?

Why such cursed indignation?

Why does it all seem so wrong?

Where is my faith?

Where are you GOD?

I need YOU.

I PRAY YOU SHOW ME THE WAY.

You have given me the signs, and I have followed.

But now I'm lost. I don't know my way.

Send me an angel, if that's what it takes.

I'm willing to come clean, and admit my mistakes.

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Monday 3 September 2018

The Monster and The Old Man

I had a dream last night.

A large Frankenstein creature was hanging over me. I caught a vision of a girl over to the side, with her back to me. She had blonde hair and a plat running up the back of her head. I imagined her to be a beautiful princess.

Somehow, this monster was about to marry the young 'princess', and knowing this it sent a surge of fear or resistance and I cried out in my sleep 'You will not marry her, you fucking bastard', or words to that effect.

I don't know where he went as I almost stumbled into semi waking state (by the act of me shouting out in my sleep) but when I got back the figure had changed. I was now speaking with an elderly man, still very large, but somehow pitiful, impotent. Potentially all the things that I find sad and pityful about myself.

The monster and the old man ... maybe these are my demons. The monster inside me, and the old man that never achieved his dreams.

Later that day we had to bury Bunda (short for Abundancia), 'our' resident wild bitch. It was horrible. We found her dead, on the side of the track.

I smoked a fat one and went down to wash myself at the tank. I asked The Father of Creation to wash me of my sins, wash out all the negativity. As I washed myself, the image came to me of the big Frankenstein monster that appeared in my dream last night, and in my imagination, I hugged him, and loved him, honoured him. This image brought me peace.

Perhaps this is a practice, of invitation.

So now,
I invite the old man,
to appear within me,
or without me,
and help me find
true abundance.

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Saturday 14 April 2018

Daily Prayer

Dear FATHER GOD,

I pray to you this day.

To give me guidance and clarity.

To know that I am doing the work of THE CREATOR.

By the sense of BEING FULFILLED in my works of healing THE MOTHER.

To help me communicate this to the world.

So that the world may know me.

And that I may know my SELF.

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By the word, my world is created.

Yet, in silence I find everlasting life.