Tuesday 7 July 2015

Into the Heart of Darkness

In the midst of my days,
shall I go down to the gates of hell. (Isaiah 38:10)
This dark land down under,
where the devil dwells.

The devils fork has lead me this way.
A return to the land from where I once strayed.
Not of my choosing, or so I imagine.
Only knowing that I come for salvation.

Gods suppressed become devils says JC.
So now I must free the devil in me.

In this dark underworld, caves I once feared to enter.
Into the heart of darkness I venture.

I must remain true during this sojourn,
for the land of light awaits my return ...

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Monday 22 June 2015

Truth and Lies

I could look into your eyes forever.
But what would I see?
In the end.
I would only see me.

So what is it?
This thing that inspires?
That gives me the breath of the spirit,
an urge to adventure,
a call to love and go wild?

In my nature, I desire.

[Don Miguel Ruiz on Desire]

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Monday 4 May 2015

Today is a good day to die.

I've lost myself ...

In the seduction of the temptress.
In the dream of falling in love with an angel.
In the nightmare of being assailed by the devil.

I've faced my temptress. My Delilah.
She left me praying for an end.
Yet, a message on my darkest night,
lead me to a Land of Light.

I fell for a angel, with broken wings.
Humbled me and brought me to my knees.
The power of Love she made me see.

I've faced my devil. My nemesis.
Crossed my sacred boundaries, left his mark upon my skin.
Reminded me of the force of darkness,
and forgiveness that comes from light within.

My creation.
This is my hero's journey.
A mythical story.
A songline in the land of the dreaming.
A walkabout in the land of light ...

One great mystery, leading to the One.

In gratitude I pray.

Today is a good day to die.

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Friday 30 January 2015

Remain True

The words of a wise sage say ...
That forgiveness is at the heart of human greatness.
For when you forgive, you are reborn as a king, into the kingdom of heaven.

I have felt this, but sometimes the journey for me is difficult,
beyond comprehension, and it feels so alone.
Forgiveness and letting go of things we love is not easy.
Especially not easy when one is drowning in a sea of sorrows,
or burning in a fire of rage.

I take a deep breath and trust that God is guiding it all as it should be.
“Let go, forgive and trust!”, the great sage inside me says.
Perhaps the most challenging imperatives in my life.

I keep being called over the edge of understanding.
I feel the gravity of my situation as I look out over the precipice of what I know.
I wish that I had the certitude to leap with all my heart, into this great unknown,
but there is too much confusion and conflict.
My mind and my heart are not acting as ONE.
I can only lean forward, let the guiding hand of God push me over that edge,
and allow the gravity of the situation to take me, into the abyss.

I cannot say that I am without fear, but nor am I without courage.
I've gotten this far and it's not been for nothing.
I must trust, and for this reason ...
I must remain true.

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