Today is a good day to die.

I've lost myself ...

In the seduction of the temptress.
In the dream of falling in love with an angel.
In the nightmare of being assailed by the devil.

I've faced my temptress. My Delilah.
She left me praying for an end.
Yet, a message on my darkest night,
lead me to a Land of Light.

I fell for a angel, with broken wings.
Humbled me and brought me to my knees.
The power of Love she made me see.

I've faced my devil. My nemesis.
Crossed my sacred boundaries, left his mark upon my skin.
Reminded me of the force of darkness,
and forgiveness that comes from light within.

My creation.
This is my hero's journey.
A mythical story.
A songline in the land of the dreaming.
A walkabout in the land of light ...

One great mystery, leading to the One.

In gratitude I pray.

Today is a good day to die.

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Remain True

The words of a wise sage say ...
That forgiveness is at the heart of human greatness.
For when you forgive, you are reborn as a king, into the kingdom of heaven.

I have felt this, but sometimes the journey for me is difficult,
beyond comprehension, and it feels so alone.
Forgiveness and letting go of things we love is not easy.
Especially not easy when one is drowning in a sea of sorrows,
or burning in a fire of rage.

I take a deep breath and trust that God is guiding it all as it should be.
“Let go, forgive and trust!”, the great sage inside me says.
Perhaps the most challenging imperatives in my life.

I keep being called over the edge of understanding.
I feel the gravity of my situation as I look out over the precipice of what I know.
I wish that I had the certitude to leap with all my heart, into this great unknown,
but there is too much confusion and conflict.
My mind and my heart are not acting as ONE.
I can only lean forward, let the guiding hand of God push me over that edge,
and allow the gravity of the situation to take me, into the abyss.

I cannot say that I am without fear, but nor am I without courage.
I've gotten this far and it's not been for nothing.
I must trust, and for this reason ...
I must remain true.

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Following Heart : God's Work

The purpose of life is to serve God.
To serve God means to follow our heart, to be true to that.
God speaks to us through the heart, so ...
when we follow our heart we are doing God's work.

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Insha'Allah

Today I have set my love free.
Free to roam in eternity,
and dissolve in the breath of God's Love.
Let fly into winds of destiny.

I thought I would feel joy by setting it free, but instead I feel sad and longing.

The dream that lead me to this foreign land seems to have lead me to the precipice of a deep cliff. The precipice of love. My dream while sleeping with the goddess, told me it would come to this.

I now give up this love, for what was revealed to me in my vision.
Which promised me the gift of peace. An ocean of it.

I fall, from up high, into the deep blue pacific ocean,
I feel the fear. I feel it deep.
But I am not hanging on.
I am letting go of all the fear.
Let it come to me. All of it.
Come what may.
If it is God's will then let it be so.
My heart will remain true,
and I will respond truthfully,
to that which is meant to be.

Insha'Allah

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The Hero's Journey

Bill Moyers Interviewing Joseph Campbell.

Two legends having a conversation regarding 'The Hero's Journey'.

It all starts when you live from the heart.
Surrender to Destiny.

You will be self realised when you find your place in the story. That's all!
There is no need to save the world.

You become the hero, when you follow your bliss ...
... and when you start your journey you will know it, because you will be challenged like never before.

It's heroic, because it's not for the weak of heart.

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More on Joseph Campbell's work:

The Monomyth
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monomyth

Joseph Campbell on Thinking Allowed - Understanding Mythology
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e6EZOtgxi_Y

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The Hero's Journey Unfolding

I had a sudden flash, insight today. It came from nowhere, an overwhelming feeling to go to my tower on the hill, kneel on the altar and pray.

I entered and knelt on the massive stone (my altar?) looking east, straight out through the door of my tower. There I see before me, framed perfectly within the door way of my tower, the concrete dwelling of my nemesis.

This is no accident. This is no mistake. This is meant to be.

Something is playing out here that has humbled me to my core. I prayed for forgiveness, forgiveness for making judgements, forgiveness for my arrogance. I meditated and felt this truth. This is the hero's journey playing out.

Through the same man that I receive my nemesis, I also receive a special gift of love. Who is this man? Is he a shaman, or is he a trickster? Perhaps it depends on how his gifts are received.

I give thanks for insight and continually pray for guidance on this hero's path.

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Give Back to Caesar

In my waking hour, as I peer into the silent cavities of my heart, I find desires that are not of my choosing. They are written on the walls of my heart. They echo through the chambers to me as my calling. Connected to something far greater than just personal desire. Something to do with destiny, the way, the high way.

If I follow this path and look deeper, I become a silent witness to the unfolding and aligning of the internal 'designs' and the world I see around me. My mind is blown. It cannot comprehend such 'magic'. A mystery. My life becomes full of wonder. I am humbled by this force/intelligence/love that guides my life. I put my hands together in gratitude for the gifts that are bestowed upon me. What great fortune. So grateful I am of this fortune that I have discovered.

Maybe this is the richness that everyone so desperately seeks nowadays but rather than following the golden path become corrupted by the false idea that money is the key to some kind of treasure in life. Perhaps it acts more like a lock that keeps us behind bars of captivity. Jesus said 'Give back to Caesar what is Caesar's and to God what is God's'. He's saying follow your heart, because God speaks through the heart.

I'd like to say that my time with Caesar is done, but I may still have to pay him one more visit and take from him what he owes to God.

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